Life Philosophy

So things have been a bit hectic over the past few weeks. Meeting new people, creating new relationships and trying to maintain old ones. All of this while rowing, working and schooling, which seems to the be the constant trinity in my life. It has been a wee bit dramatic, which also seems to happen when I deal with slightly more emotional situations than normal. Here is what I have come to by way of reflection on myself.

I am a highly passionate individual. I feel and experience the things in my world with much fervor and great depth. This in turn causes me what most would refer to as "drama" I don't cut people out of my life easily, I don't shut myself away to helping people with their issues or letting people, on the occasion, help me with mine. I don't keep things to myself and I am horrifically open. This blog would be a testament to that, I am writing out my thoughts are releasing them to the access of the entire world (accept maybe China :)) without reserve, for the most part. Because of all of these things, I have drama, and I am often around drama. Up until this point I truly thought that this was something I needed to work on and get rid of, but I think I might be changing my tune.

In order to cut drama from my life, I would have to cut certain people out. Not going to happen. My friends are wonderful, even when they are dramatic, and I like the complexity and diversity that comes along with each and every one of them. I would have to stop letting people vent to me, which in turn gets me stressed about their problems. I like helping people and getting them through things and making them happy, which means saying "no" doesn't happen often. I would have to keep some things to myself. To be honest, at this point in my young life, keeping things to myself just isn't going to happen, I tell people things, I vent and bitch and whine, and that is part of how I deal with things. And finally i would have to shut myself off to being an open person. This would be the biggest issue because I like sharing myself with people, I like letting my passions be known to the world, I like painting with my own shade of color.

I am a passionate individual and I would have it no other way. I feel and express and emote in big, loud, overbearing ways, and that is how I like it.

Now, don't get me wrong, there are things I need to work on doing that are not going to change me as a person that have the ability to cut down the drama. And also understand, that there is good drama and bad drama and just because I accept that a byproduct of my personality is drama doesn't mean I like marinating in it forever and ever.

So I will take on the drama. I will accept and welcome the beauty that comes with the depth and complexity of human emotion in all its forms. I will try and eliminate it where I can, but when it comes my way I will realize that in order to live my big passionate life, that this will be an effect, and I will welcome it with open arms.

Hope everything is coming up roses!
~The Singing Ginger