*sigh*

So after giving myself a bit of time to both mope and wallow in self pity, I am back here releasing my thoughts out into the world to all of you wonderful people. The boy said "no," after finally getting the nerve up to ask him he said "no." Lucky for me I only fall for wonderfully sweet, amazingly kind, and dashingly handsome boys so he let me down easy, and I am excited to be able to quickly pass over any awkward stage and just be friends again. Don't get me wrong, my ego/ pride is still trying to recover but I will be okay, and truly this guy is too awesome to lose to some weirdness or another.

Time to push on, time to keep going. My erg splits have been falling which is some sort of consolation, and I have enough school work to focus on to keep me busy for at least three life times. All in all life is going well. But here is my little rant for the day: money is evil. Most of the stress in my life comes from school and money. Money to buy books, money to travel money to go and do the thing I would like to do. Now, don't get me wrong, I understand that by way of most of the world;s population I have very little money troubles. I update my blog, from my laptop while drinking a diet pepsi and sit in my dorm room at the university I attend. Unfortunately, like my philosophy teacher used to say "you can not compare people's suffering" so my current "suffering" (again make no mistake I am well aware of much more painful things than this) is money. Why is it that in a world so rich with opportunity and adventure that we are held back by bits of paper and metal coin? I understand that we can't just have some sort of trade or skill system, and that even if we did there would still be poor people and rich people and the ever smaller population of people in the middle...but still?!?

Money makes everything function and work and most of the time it does a great job with that; but what happens when those that deserve certain things don't have the money that should correlate to their worth? What if the grade A student can't find the loans and scholarship to attend a secondary education institution? What happens when the All American baseball player falls down on his luck and can't afford to play the game he loves? What happens when you have entire populations of people that want to educate their children on the world but have not the resources in which to travel it? It is amazing how blatantly we put a monetary value over people's heads. How we can just write off a life in dollars and cents. What gives us the right to inhibit or prohibit an existence with currency?

As per usual I have no answers to any of these questions, it has just been something that has been on my mind lately as I grow more and more aware of my monetary surroundings. Promise not to have this much of a hiatus ever again, I already have the next post started. Hope everything is coming up roses!

~The Singing Ginger

Damn

He said "no"

~The Singing Ginger

Wish Me Luck

Okay so I have come to the conclusion that this person that I really like is worth taking a risk for. I have decided that if he doesn't do something by the end of the week I am going to ask him out. I haven't done this in about 6years and the last time I asked a guy out it ended...badly. So...yeah... I am kind of freaking about this but I really do believe it is going to be worth it in the end. This is how I see this one: if he says "no" we can move on and get over that weird awkward phase where we figure out how to be friends after what just went down. If he says "yes" then we can try this out and see how it goes. :) I am so excited. Keep you all updated on this as it goes along. Wish me luck!

~The Singing Ginger

FIRST POST 2009!!

So as promised here is my list of New Year's resolutions (not that I am thinking a ton of you care but more that you all may get ideas for your own)

New Year 2009:
-Get to healthy weight
-Learn patience and self reliance
-Kiss someone who means something to me/ don't kiss anyone who doesn't mean anything to me
-Be more truthful
-Find something to love about myself everyday
-Get down to a 2:09 6k split time
-Make art
-Sing more
-Take a chance and do something totally random
-Stop swearing as much
-Keep grades up

I am sure I will have more to add but for now this is where I am at. Maybe, when we get to 2010, I will go back and tell you all what I have reached and what I have not.

Love much, and often,
~The Singing Ginger